This is my be strange to share but for me its a kind of therapy.

hello i am back again but today its to talk about some thing that has currently happening in my life and to make aware to people just how anyone can be effected by this. I am the granddaughter of an astounding woman a woman who raised me when things were hard and helped me become who i am today. For a few weeks now i have been dealing with this lady who means the world to me being very ill an in discomfort. We were made aware that she had a cyst that they were going to look at treating the cyst seemed to pose no further danger than the discomfort but they said they would do tests just incase. Sadly my nan became increasingly weaker and unable to manage much food or drink all of which came to head on saturday just gone when she got rushed to hospital. After several tests we found she had a irregular heartbeat possibly brought on by a mild heart attack. This came as a huge shock but further tests were ordered. So today we went to the hospital after being told they had the results and were dealt the devastating news that my nan has a 25cm tumour on her ovary that they have found to be cancerous and that although there are potential avenues to go down the doctors advise us that she is simply too weak to handle them and they would merely cause her more distress than aid her as they feel the cancer has progressed to far this entire whirlwind took place over 4-5 weeks from her getting ill to us being told we can no longer do anything to save her. Today i have cried till it hurts and then cried again and i know some people will wonder why i have blogged this but for me this is like my diary of things i feel i need to say out loud i am scared upset and trying my hardest to be strong but i wanted to share my familys story of just how devastatingly fast our lives have been turned upside down as over the next few days/week/months we are having my nan come home so for however long we have left with ehr she can be comfortable at home with her family around her it is her last wish a wish i never expected to hear so soon and i will stand by it and now we look to the support of the macmillian team. I intend to post a link for  the ovarian cancer support site and the macmillain cancer support site if my story helps maybe one person think about getting that worry checked or helps some one in a similar place then i can tell my nan i show her my blogs and she knows i am an open book to all . thanks for taking the time to read this here are the links http://www.ovacome.org.uk/
http://www.macmillan.org.uk