well talk about a frickin curve ball

This is just a little blog as i sit here ASTOUNDED at the FA who claims to have no bias (my a***) but when a mixed race Uruguayan is made guilty of racist through claims from a known tool who cries wolf more than the boy in the story and get an 8 yes 8 game ban and a label which many who won't listen to the facts will weld to him purely for the hell of it how is that justice.
Racism is wrong in any sort but we all know when John Terry is dealt with it will be no where near the punishment received by Suarez because and i am speaking as a British citizen FA kiss English players backsides all day long and favour them look in the case of Rooney for his appeal an army is gathered marching in and get what they want Luis Suarez is being used as a scapegoat so the FA can say hey look we are being tough on racism (unfounded claims that have no actual proof bar a interpretation of a word that has a different meaning in different cultures and the word of Evra).
Luis Suarez has been a international and club level player and never had any accusation of this nature against him and gets a crushing blow of 8 games for actions that are apparently completely out of character and even though the person accusing believes Suarez not to be a racist and admits he himself was abusive to the person banned there is no repercussions being brought upon Evra.
How on any level is a man being made a scapegoat for something that can't be proven be a fair and just out come.

Luis Suarez is not a racist he is a victim of an unjust system.

Christmas .....................Humbug

Evening all hope you all well weather the viewers are 3 or 30 am happy. It's getting to that insane time of year that obligates us to buy for people we generally see at most twice to three times a year yes it's beginning to look a lot like Christmas .. *yawn*.
Now don't get me wrong I love Christmas for my son his excitement and enjoyment is infectious but what I detest is the social requirement to feel under pressure to buy the cost appropriate presents  for family and friends.
As a sole provider for a family that is not in the in a sturdy place financially it's a time of year that evoke intese pressure and stress when all i want is for my little boy to smile and be happy with what i have got him every penny is being strained and stretched to its maximum capacity and i am not ashamed to admit its still difficult to do it. But every year we run around buying for various aunties uncles and cousins when really isn't it nieces and nephews who are still young and can enjoy it we should focus on it sounds like am being a misery but i really don't need or want anything for Xmas my family has all been told the same spend what you would of on me on my little boy get him a little something extra.
It's him who this Christmas is about for me now no one else.

So this blog is more about for me the fact I am releasing my family of buying me the bubble bath sets i will forget i have put in the cupboard till i put the chunky winter blankets away and think oh yeah must use them and just to let my boy have the fun cause if i remember anything from Christmases as i have aged it's much more fun for the younger ones so let it be about them heck times are hard and purses have less change to carry as it is and am not saying if you can don't indulge but if you can't don't make yourself feel like the grinch because your not stealing Christmas from any parents  they have all they need in their childs eyes.

Although my blogs are generally about my life i just felt i needed to share this much love and Merry Xmas to you all x

Lads Ladies and all those in between

Afternoon she's back again :) I know not many read this but if 1 reads and likes it am still gonna be happy :).
So what's been occurring in my wonderful little world well.........

Liverpool doing some nice arsekicking of chelsea never a bad thing :). I have had several arguments with a tosser on ebay and his choice of courier and i have become far to addicted to modern warfare 3. Really it is not a healthy addiction.

My lovely lil boy has been causing havoc as ever and has developed a current obsession with all things train related. Like all mums i have started the dreaded xmas shopping and too all the clever people who are all finished please don't brag it just winds the rest of us with our backs against the wall up i know its not your fault but some of us are simply incapable of being properly organised. A self confessed fault of mine for a long time and after 23 years i can't see it changin now :).

I other news dog gave us a absolute scare of a lifetime sitting watching tv after having argued with ebay and such noticed dogs eye was swollen and that he was getting bumps and lumps all over his face so called on call vet who said he probably just took a tumble playing with my son in the garden. Then this morning i wake up to a dog with a face swelling up that he now resembles some bizarre mastiff cross breed rush to vets and face a 40 pound cost to find the daft aputh has has an allergic reaction albeit a fairly severe one it appears to of been caused by a wasp or bumblebees last act of revenge on y dog for eating it. So hear i am today blogging instead of working because the dog has to be monitored to make sure he doesn't have a bad reaction to his shots.

I other news i am officially working 2 jobs now i am still in the restaurant and have taken on doing relief support work for adults with learning difficulties. Its a job i have done before and absolutely loved so seeing as life in general costing a bloody fortune lately and my dearest beloved is still having no luck getting a job through college its mummy bread winner to the rescue :)

Back in work at the restaurant tomorrow though but looking forward to being off sunday nice big sunday roast for me an my boys as the redmen kick sum manc city tush then onto the scumford bridge tuesday to dig another jab into the wounds we left at chelsea last week :).

So its been hectic a lil bit kooky and crazy but its my life and although time to myself is a rare and i cant remember the last time i got my nails done or a pamper day its the life i live the life i love and the life i chose :)
love to all who take the time to read this any and all feedback is very much welcome :) xx

It's Been A while

Hi all been crazy few months between looking for a new job dealing with childcare issues and basic drama an life. But fear not am back to ramble one an go into great lengths about the thrills and spills that is my life.
Since my last post Liverpool Fc are still a love in my life as is my baby boy and the other half but we have had to endure some lack lustre performances. Swansea for one need I say more but I will, how is it in the prem stoke can stuff us like a chrimbob turkey and in domestic cup away we can walk away smiles n giggles tis bizzarre for me.

In me world I have bit the bullet and gone for a interview to look at  getting back into to that will keep you posted :) . As well as getting far to into on-line gaming again for a lady of my age I have enjoyed much more me time having what can only be called a hysterical Halloween night out with friends. I have sadly dealt with the loss of my great uncle an also had a near heart failure but that is for the mummy section. Gone is the wii fit I am now thinking if I can't love me the way I am post child birth I am going to drive myself insane wishing for that size 8 tush back. My current size although not perfect is doing me just fine hell I even got a "nice arse" comment today true it was from a van of gypsies collecting scrap but beggars cant be choosers. Now the crappy months of weather are hear I now longer need to fear the legs out on a night out so I am sure as hell not gonna starve myself over it :). In other news my love for my music is back full force i just wish i had the voice to go with the passsion i am i have to say a little bit obsessed with 'Jar of Hearts' and pretty much everything Ed Sheeran sings .

In mummy land its been very topsy turvy the latest incident that as my uncles wife and uncle brought my son home one evening last week they crossed the road as you do on what can be described as a shitty weather day around tea time. Only to get half way for some complete tosser running into the pushchair carrying my son. Thanking every lucky star there is in the sky he was ok he had a bump to the head but was in general back to himself in a day or so. But for me the ludacris part was that the ambulance staff not only didn't take him to hospital but did't  record he had bumped his head leading to the police trying to brush events under the carpet as a non injury rtc which I rang them countless times to enlighten them it wasn't and that I wanted answers. For myself as a mother who was at work relying on family helping with childcare I expected more from the taxes I pay so now we are midst an investigation since they corrected the previous note of no injury and again that story is to be continued .

But I won't go on too long and won't take so long with the next post don't forget comments would be fab and if ur a tweeter follow me @Emily_C_B1ondi3

the night before

this is simply a lil blog because this time tomorrow approximately i will be sitting with a cold can watching match of the day something the household has missed for weeks now feels like football has been gone a lifetime.

Seeing as i am a fully fledged kopite with a fledgling of my own i cant help but look forward to the next few years of taking my boy to his first matches hopefully before the end of the Kings era "In Kenny We Trust". The anticipation is at all an time high with tweeter buzzing about the coming events myself included in that buzz so at 3 o clock i will be hunting for some way to watch the match by fair means or foul and will re kindle my love  affair with the English Premier League and for all the highs and heartache I can't bloody wait.

a message of madness

Hey again i am back really unsure if anyone even reads this lol. But as u will all know from the news the riots in the UK have been going since Saturday. I for one feel its ludicrous that these looters feel they  are doing any form of protest for something that is so obviously just organized violence and civil disregard for their fellow human being but i won't rant as i cant change anything by being mad at it.

 In other news England vs Holland was cancelled leaving a completely crap choice of British TV on a Wednesday night so instead i have been tweeting Google+ and Facebook-ing to entertain myself. Their has also been speculation over suspension of the start of the new premier league season which would cause up roar in my house alone let alone with the thousands of other fans who have been dying for it to start.
i have also decided to try and spruce up my blog to get more readers comments so on and so forth so keep your eyes peeled for that.

Back in the world of mummy me its been a lot of sleepless nights as J refuses to stay asleep lately god only knows why it appears to be a phase of how many hours of sleep can mum sun on today it turns out not many at all and i keep functioning maybe i am some part machine woman and was just never made aware of it. Who knows?  So basically the country i live in has gone to the chavs but its all great on the home front bar needing extra coffee to make it through the day for which in light of what some people are going through isnt bad at all.

love as always and love for lfc  xxx

I Have been jailed

was happily chattin away this evenin till i got my first ever lock up in twitter jail how very rude i had only been on for an hour or so an exceeded my limit i knew i was a chatter box but blimey this is summat else lol jus thought i would share this lil incident as i was left rather gobsmacked lol that is all

bein a socialite so to speak!!

Soo i have endeavored in getting a Google+ account not a clue how it work but thanks to twitter i have 2 people in my circle.
After joining I was thinking I have had every kind of social account at one point or another Bebo MySpace Netlog Facebook Twitter and now Google+ . This Lil fact made me see something i hadn't before although I am a very sociable person I find that I am more of a socialite through my tweets where i often have interesting chats with funny and interesting people than i have with many of my "real life" friends, I find it astounding that the level of conversation with practical strangers known by screen name actually trumps my best friend who although i love her to bits her interests mainly include that of the next eyebrow shape nail salon visit an fake tanning.
Where as these "strangers" i talk football reading movie and general day to day there is always a topic never am i lost for words or on the phone making the excuse of the tea is ready so am going to go eat to break an awkward silence of saying all the things we had needed to. I would like to state that this is not a blog about the friends i have as i have a variety of friends whom i spend time with under various circumstance i.e work friends, gamer friends, best pals, friends i only see now n then, and friends i don't see enough. But the ones i interact with most are those social net-worker just like me sitting down at the end of the day just logging on to see whats going on in the world. I admit i am more of a internet geek and too most of my "real" friends its common knowledge and often butt of many jokes at me unexpected geek chic but I enjoy it because whether its my best friends who know me inside out an back to front or the people i say hey to of an evening i would like to consider myself blessed friends locally socially and internationally and for all those who say its a bad thing i say this if having online friends as well as real ones who ensure that at any  point when you need it you can find someone to just have that chat you need to is a bad thing well there's something wrong

so there u have it whether its in my lil home town or cyberspace i think we should celebrate our socialite in us we all have one xx

life and trials of childcare

As a working mum i would love to get my child into a nursery there are 3 in the area all chocka full so when i thought about a childminder as a second choice and found a place, I thought great but when i call the tax credit ti get the help i qualify for i simply end up sat on a fone for what feels like a life time.


This i feel is something we all have to face as an issue with government run facilities but seriously i have tried no less than 5 times in 2 days an been on hold at least half an hour at a time if they want us to improve the lives of our children and get them into early education at least make it plausible to gain the information on help we can receive financially in these difficult times a small rant but i felt i had to do it :)

back again

So i have been absent from blog world but i am back with an update on the current nightmare of trying to teach J some manners and as he is 2 years old this is a huge challenge he insists on everything being now and most answers include don't want. But we persist with the please line and don't shout at mummy and daddy currently to no avail. In other news i am working towards becoming shift manager in work and it means more paperwork to go through training courses and many other fun events to get through on top of attempting to maintain a tidy home. This is currently failing to all those mums who have a pristine home i honestly have no idea how you do it without tying your children down for the remainder of the day till bedtime as my son has an ingenious knack of undoing all my hard work in a swift way. As its the summer we are still going through limbo as the boys and myself have no interest in weekend TV any more although this will spark up again in august thanks goodness with the start of a new season I know I am one of a small section but being in a family of majority boys I have always had a passion for the sport football and sport in general.

In other news I have noticed as the kids near the holidays that they seem to have accumulated a total disregard for general human nature as I caught a rabble of youngsters throwing rocks at the side of my home I went out to pleasantly tell them to well get away from my house to which i was grunted at n asked how much I was a go. Being far to polite I wont tell you my response but u can imagine it I am sure.

To finish off my regular TV rant the show is one about vinny green childrens home for lets say the disfunctional youths or those that are a danger to themselves the latter I can understand the government giving millions to ensure mental health care and improvement of their confidence and how to deal with the issues they have. But when it is mearly some jumped up little thug who wants to fight the world I say a much more firm approach of if your big enough to do the crime go and see what the big boys in prison make of you I think we would see quite the decline in young offenders if ther realised they would run into someone bigger and meaner than themselves.

So all in all everything is much the same I miss my beloved football dearly whilst getting whiplash from tranfer news and rumours whilst working hard to keep all my balls in the air and make sure that am not only being a good mummy and being good to me :)

Sorry for the absence

I have decided to reduce my blogging in order to hopefully make it less mundane as i aim for quality over quantity. So heres our life over the last few weeks aswell as dealing with increasing tantrums we had J 2nd birthday an event with had ups and downs downs being family that should of come not bothering hurtful but unfortnate. But I decided to cater and plan the party myself a task which i have been called mad for doing but overall a good day was had by all. My concerns now lie in getting J to sleep in  junior bed without wanting to run off out in his room and potty training which in all honesty is going at a snails pace. But we seem to have won a battle in getting J to walk like a big boy now rather than use the buggy so much one less thing to lug around and as a parent knows thats always a god send having one less thing to lumber around. I have watched another of these reality shows around parenting and too not repeat my earlier rant I turned it off. No wonder young parents get no respect. On top of lifes trials and tribulations I have had to be tough mum and push my pains to the side as i have been dealing with a horrid bbout of tooth/earache for days now but as all mums know we just have to get up and get on with it and thats exactly what i have done. so i sign off for now having got a hack of a day aheado f me but will be back soon too fill you in again.

A Heck Of A Day

The past few days have been hectic with birthday preperations as well as another family occasion and working I have been feeling the candle burning at both ends but its all part and parcel for me a feeling I am well used to. It's true when they say motherhood gets no holidays and no sick days but is the best job in the world. I had the satisfaction of being able to watch my little man run around shouting goal at the tv monday night at the liverpool win he only watched the first half but his latest outburst of excitement lead to his dad going and getting him a football. God have mercy on my house, also we have been re-decorating the house due to its dated appearance of faded paint a job which J finds entertaining wanting to try and help. But since the crayon has still not been covered in the living room I decided his help was not best. I have to say though my pride is bursting as he get better and better at putting words together and saying new words. So we can't be doing a bad job if he is learning at the rate that he is. I have got work again today so J is having a boys day at home with dad seeing as they're both still asleep i think cuddle may have to wait till later for me please continue to share this blog and tell me your views if you wish I do this simple to share my experiences with other mums because i know first hand how much hardwork it is.

Finding The Balance

So after coming home today from an 8 hour shift I started thinking about how us mums find the balance of working being mum and beinf wife/girlfriend/friend .

I would like to say yes i have a good balance but I admit if find it incredibly hard still leaving J or if I am working early and he is at home with my partner knowing I won't see him till I get home if he isnt up before I leave.Its hard because I know have alot less time as mum than I was previously used to and miss him when I am working but I know I cant be the only mum dealing with this pull feeling of wantin to not miss a moment of their childs day but also wants to work and provide the best that they can for their child. I think the way i get through is knowing when I get home J will shout for me as soon as my key goes in the door and run to me arms wide open for that hug that lets me know yes mum i missed you too.

I always say to my friend and family about how fast J is growing up but its absolutely terrifying to think in 6 months time he will be in a nursery 2-3 days a week and then next stage will be school and my little boy won't be little for long. But i plan on building many memories for us to enjoy over the years. I came from a home where my gran was the mother to me my own mother should have been and I was my dads little girl and I want to ensure that J has the best mum and dad we can give him. Family units are something I say about alot but its the absolute truth my family I are amazing and J is going to have great cousins to grow up with aunties and uncles who adore him and be surrounded by love as he is now.

When I think on to the more recent future though I have to admit as a mother who tends to go with her gut instinct and tried and advised methods there is one thing ahead of me I am not sure how to tackle J is getting to potty training age now and I am completely thrown on how best to deal with it we have a potty which J sits on and we cheer and give him praise for doing it properly but have had no success stories as of yet and also getting him to drink cows milk is proving a push and pull battle as he really isnt keen on it we have had occasions of success but mostly he refuses it and wants his formula my only worry is as he is getting to an age where formula isnt appropriate how do I win this battle.

I am going to try and space my blog to every few days though so that this doesnt end up my online diary as unfortunately my life siply isnt that excitin lol. Also please drop some comments yours views are appreciated.

Long day.

Been feeling low today had to leave my son with family while i went to be my friends model for her course but was upsetting as he got very upset when i left him .

 Feeling very emotionally worn down but its all part n parcel of the job for example its 8pm and am sitting down for 5 minutes before going to make some tea and it reminds me of what I said in my first blog me and my partner work very hard to be all we can be for our son no matter how tired or how long our day has been we still make sure we have smiles and play time for our little man. Because above all else his happiness is our priority. I cab't wait for the weekend we have had forecast for some good weather want to enjoy it with my partner and son we deserve a nice day out.

Would love to hear your views or experiences on what its been like for you going back to work or your child going to nursery and missing you .

End of Another Day

I dont intend to over blog but as I am new wanna keep the momentum going is very pleased I have a follower on only my 2nd day blogging its been a long day though and i have made a commitment which ensures tomorrow will be an early start and a very long day as I am her guinea pig for her beauty qualification it may sound nice being pampered all day but you don't know my friend who i may add reminds me of when I was young having my hait brushed by my mum yanking at the knots :)

Which brings me nicely onto my next topic do you think people who change how they are towards  friends are fair to do so when they have had children or people who to change towards  you when you have had children yourself. See I personally don't see that I have changed towards my friends and have made clear that yes i am a mum first but I am still the same person as I was before.

I know as a parent you can get swept up in the emotional overwhelment of the first few weeks but always remember friends and family are the support tree that are there to help i know i wwould be lost without mine.

A Day Off

Today is my day off from work but as any mum knows there is no such thing its only lunchtime and I have tidied J's room twice done 2 meals and had to look after my partner who has a reall bad head and chest cold. But we do this everyday because from the moment we feel the first amazing kick we know that for the next 16-18 years we are going to be busy day in day out no sick calls no holiday breaks being a mum is  full time role and I applaud the other mums who go out and work as well when they knw the work won't stop even when they clock out of there shift.

Today J seems particularly full of beans obsessed with having me see how he crashes his cars and the lovely arrangement of cereal he made on the carpet as I grabbed a shower. I love my son to peices and going back to work was made possible because of great support from my family and my partner.

But I am not going to kid anyone I am not a model mum as this blog is titled I make sure I am still true to myself as well as givin J all he needs. I am a regular tweeter and facebook user I have a personal account and a twilight fan page account on twitter and I am a avid Liverpool FC Fan from as far back as I can remember. No idea how it came to be as I come from a family that loves rugby. 

I have a great passion for reading that I hope to pass on to my son as he is keen on browsing books and having story time and like most mums of my age my reading loves are majoritivly the harry potter collection and the twilight saga.

I am really just going to be sharing about me my thoughts and views on being a mummy and also the challenges I face aswell as sharing the importance of what its meant for me to make sure I get to still be me and not morph into wanna be model mum.

I hope my blog will intrest people as I am still new as where to go with my posts but all I can be is me.

well here goes

So I have seen a lot  about blogging and how it generally works so I have decided to take on blogging and see if its something to go along with. I am a 22 year old girl from wales in the UK I have the most amazing son god could have given me and live with my boyfriend  Gaz. But its been tough and one reason I wanted to blog was because i having only recently gone back to work was a full time mum and am driven mad by all these shows on about girls getting pregnant and not taking on the responsibility not on the girls but the guys as well. I was terrified when I first found out I was pregnant but then  I looked into what stage pregnancy I was at and I was overwhelmed that I was carrying a tiny life inside me my partner Gaz was supportive and we decided that we were going to give our baby everything we could regards the problems along the way money where to live all these things were stuff we would just deal with because we were going to be parents.

I had a relatively simple pregnancy till I hit 28 weeks and started getting intense itching all over to the point where i could barely sleep after a blood test i was found to have obstetric cholostesis a blood condition caused by and overactive liver function. This condition only occurs during pregnancy and carried serious threat to my sons life. I was so shocked to hear the risks of miscarriage brain damage and still birth and was put on medication which helped but didn't solve the problem my acid levels shot up and in the end I had to be induced at 35 weeks pregnant i was terrified having only been told the decision 2 days before I also panicked as we were moving into our new home and was worried how we would get ready for a baby in such a short time.

But thankfully all went well i was in labour 3 hours and had an assisted forceps birth due to my little man was born scaring us all with his heart rate dropping he was born 5lb 2.5oz and was too small for all his clothes but to my great relief he was OK. The next few weeks were hard adjusting to being a mum i went through highs and lows at one point being viciously reported for supposedly not caring for my baby a claim that social workers immediate agreed was a result of malice toward me.

J is now a few weeks away from 2 and has got a new partner in crime a Labrador that joined our family at Christmas in this blog i will be blunt i will speak my mind but i will also hope to make people aware of the condition i had when pregnant and also just what its like for a working mum doing all she can for her little boy and her relationship and finding the balance to enjoy life enjoy her son and enjoy her man